Have u ever not cared at what people think or say and just do whatever u wanted? Even for a span of 15 minutes? It's really liberating...it truly is!! Although this probably isn't the first time i did it and i believe everybody who was a child once did go through that phase, i still think that everyone should try it out once in awhile...
As i was coming home from the city last night (after having dinner with friends at a korean bbg restaurant - which was not as good as the one in clayton and MUCH more expensive), i plugged my mp3 earphones in my ears and blasted m-flo as i walked back home from Clayton station. There was a reason why i choose to get off at Clayton rather than take the bus at Huntingdale. I decided i owed it to myself to take nice breezy walk. Well, as you know, music is like amphetamine to me...especially music with nice beats and cool rhytmns. So the moment i got off the train i started to jog down street to like somehow get away from the people. Once i thought i was alone...i broke into a dance!! Well, sort off.
Running and hopping to the beat, doing some weird feet kicking and twirling moves, i jiggied all the way back to Panorama!! Ahahahaz...so much fun!! There were the few pedestrians about and of course they saw me...but i didn't care. It didn't matter. I felt so good~~ It was like being a kid again, like being able to dream and feel like you can do anything. It wasn't only about not caring what people think about you...but also what you think about urself. For those 15 mins, i was liberated from the chains of societal normalcy and could indulge myself in the pure innocent moments of exhiliration of being alive.
So there i was, laughing and giggling like a little girl as i made my way back home. As i was nearing my porch, i did a final jiggle and went in....
Yay!! I finished it at last. New song. I think it's nice but yeah..gotta try it out first and let people know....sorta. I'll try and post it up or something...ahahahz.. How's It Gonna Be By :Me
Jumping from train to train Not knowing where to go No clue inside my head
Hidden voices everywhere They say go with the flow And you'll find your way someday
But i've been searching And running And looking around... And i've been beaten And kicked in And thrown to the ground But still i am lost in limbo Not sure where to go...
So tell me.. How's it gonna be? Should i walk down the road with my head held high? Or ask for directions without knowing why... So tell me... How's it gonna be..
Looking from face to face Just wondering if they'd know How to get to where i need to be..
So i'll just raise my toast To living life on the road Taking my time, finding my way...
Standing at crossroads And junctions Just waiting for the green man Obeying the 'stop' 'go' And 'yes' 'no' Cries of trapped mentality Just looking through the window Of society
So tell me... How's it gonna be? Should i raise my hand and tell them what i think? Or sit on my ass as i watch them sink So tell me... How's it gonna be...
Congratulations and celebrations...lalala lala lala la (I dunno the rest of the words =P). Congratulations to Victor who just got married yesterday!! Ahahaz...Good on you man. He's my dad's friend's son...we used to like play together with his bro when they were still in JB. They migrated here like ages ago so i haven't seen them like forever.
Meeting up with them was great!! Chatting up and catching up...aihz.. Imagine..we were kids when i last saw them and now one has gotted married and the other is like in London working with some accounting firm...i think. AHahaz...So much for catching up. But is was great to see them.
Hectic day with helping carrying all the stuff. I even suffered like abit of skin when i was helping them blow and tie the balloons up. But all the hardwork payed off cause the wedding dinner was B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L!! And so was the bride. It was a church wedding so i had the chance to experience what it was like with the stuff u normally see on tv. It wasn't as draggy as i thought it might be....in fact it was pretty organized and everything went smoothly...well almost. You know how chinese weddings are like...well all weddings for that matter. No matter how much preparation u make there's always something uncompleted or some relative not turning up yet or a mishap here and there.
All in all, it was a great day and everyone partied like crazy at the end. So all's good...hehehhehe
There's nothing to do!! I need a job!!! It's ALWAYS like this. The after exam BOREDOM has set in AGAIN!! I don't get it...maybe it's because i did all the things i should be doing for the hols during the exam week....ahahahaz...my bad.
Gonna be cooking tomorrow....contributing my dish of fish to the "feast" our Panorama house is throwing tomorrow...mmmmmmm!!! Should be cooking again anyways. Do some experimentation and see how it goes!! Ahahahaz.. Sorry Vek and Audrey, gonna be guinea pigs for abit yeah (abit meaning a year...>.<).
What to blog...what to blog. Oh yeah!! Dad got me my mp3 player!! Yay!! I think it's a Creative Zen V plus but i'm not sure. That's what i asked for anways. My sis got an mp3 player too...but i don't know what for. She's still in secondary one. So she can't possibly be bringing one to school plus her history with electrical goods isn't that great. Her first handphone was pickpocketed by someone...and worst she didn't know where. And this mp3 player was sent in for repair within the first week of usage. Haihz~~~...this is depressing. My own sister....
Should get back to my novel since i have the time now. And i can now concentrate on working on my business plan...sorta....working out the finer details and stuff. Song writing and guitar practicing...OH OH!! Final fantasy 12!!! Will someone like buy for me and send it over to me?? Please???!!!! Maybe i'll get adrian to do it since he's going back and has got nothing to do during the hols anyways.
I'll stop here larr...don't really know what to blog anyways. Oh, a final thing. Went to Samsara (yes, in sanskrit it means suffering but this is a mediteranean (lebanese, and did i get that right?) restaurant so it probably doesn't mean the same thing) to have dinner with the gang. Danny fished out his AUD 120 voucher for the place and gave us a subsidised treat!! Yay!! Both food and company was good so...all's good!! Had the fish of the day by the way....
I don't knoe if it's because of the redbulling or because of my "studyphobia".... that's why, i guess, i'm blogging now.
Ok...checked out the infamous xiaxue blog for the first time in quite awhile. Not one of those people who is interested in the lives of people i don't know...and don't care. But as i was browsing through...i just couldn't help but wonder at how do these people make a living out of BLOGGING??!!! WTF??? People actually sponsor her to blog. *smacks head and long piak*
I know i always like to paint a pretty picture of the world where through all the dark murky waters of despair and despondency that the human race is still one that holds true value in living their lives and share a common goodness and understanding. BUT, i guess i should burst my own bubble of self-created, blissful ignorance and face the truth of the WORLD! People aren't all they are cut out to be....
I mean, why would u go read up on another person's life and escapades....especially one who BLOGS for a living - a self-declared full-time blogger?? If so...wouldn't the blog entries be..."I am blogging right now.....still blogging....i think i'll go eat, take a bath and blog some more...". I guess it's the same reason why we want to know about gossip. For the lack of topics to discuss.... Makes conversations fun to indulge in and avoids the awkward silences.
And i've never been one to indulge in gossip. Probably due to the goldfish memmory on mine. To me, people who like gossip always have good memmories...coz if not, they'll forget what they just herd/read and not be able to join in the discussions. Maybe i should gossip more...then i'll do well in my exams... hmmmm
And there's a hottest blogger?? Why is there a hottest blogger?? Shouldn't the hottest blogger be like a model or something?? Like if (to me that is) Jessica Alba had a blog...shouldn't she be the hottest blogger? That makes more sense right? At least more than naming xiaxue (sia sueh more like it) or the new "Dawn" as the hottest blogger.... Well, credits to xiaxue for pointing out the fact that there's no such thing as a hottest blogger.... Even she thinks it's a dumb idea....(sorry for stereotyping you as a "dumb blonde").
And then there's youtube....VIDEO BLOGS!!! WTF!!! Self made celebrities.... Why the fudge do we need to indulge ourselves with other people's lives??? Aren't our own enough to occupy our tiny little minds???
You Raised Me Up....Dedicated to my beloved parents
Wanted to do this for awhile now....been slipping my mind. Just to remind everyone of a great song...and one you might want to keep in mind for special occasions...weddings, father's day, mother's day, parent's birthday, etc...
You Raised Me Up
When I am down and, oh my soul, so weary; When troubles come and my heart burdened be; Then, I am still and wait here in the silence, Until you come and sit awhile with me.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains; You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas; I am strong, when I am on your shoulders; You raise me up… To more than I can be.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains; You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas; I am strong, when I am on your shoulders; You raise me up… To more than I can be.
There is no life – no life without its hunger; Each restless heart beats so imperfectly; But when you come and I am filled with wonder, Sometimes, I think I glimpse eternity.
You raise me up, so I can stand on mountains; You raise me up, to walk on stormy seas; I am strong, when I am on your shoulders; You raise me up… To more than I can be.
Last 2 papers weren't too bad. I know i'll pass them...just wondering if i'll score. Do so want my 'mum mum'...wakakka.
With 2 papers left, i'm suddenly back into the 'it's hols!!' mode...aaarrrggggghhhhh. Need to get my act together again. If it means 3 cans of redbull...so be it! I cannot afford to fail again. Omg... Hopefully my brains h0lds up for all the cramming i gotta do.
Mmm...looking forward to Kareen's makan thing. Also looking forward to seeing my dad who's coming down on the 18th. Both of them means good food.....wakakakka!!! Yes...i'm a glutton. For those of you who know me long enough...this should not pose as a surprise. Of course..i wanna see my dad too.... Ahahaz.. Sounds so much like an afterthought (but NO it's not an afterthought...just that blogging about my wants are much more fun!).
Pa was asking me about what i want him to bring over...i kinda know what i want him to bring over for me...but wonder if i should ask him...hmmm. I do so want an Mp3 player...wonder if it's cheaper back home...
I want him to get FF12 for me too...but it's my dad...and i don't think he'll appreciate me asking him that... -____-"
